I was 14 when I first self-harmed.
I never did it with the intention of dying, I just wanted to feel something other than the intense sadness and depression I felt constantly.
It started with binge eating. Then pinching. Then drinking. Then cutting. Then using drugs. I was never addicted but I certainly enjoyed getting rid of my emotional and mental pain temporarily with these vices.
The pain in my mind and soul was finally gone… because I was focusing on something else.
And then it got to be too much. I didn't want to live like this anymore. I wanted to respect and love not only the body I was harming, but the soul I was harming.
I stopped self-harming, mentally and physically. I stopped and so can you. So whether you use broken pieces of glass, vodka or MDMA like I did, or you have your own ways of blocking out pain (which can be ‘less intense’ than these forms like excessive exercise), you can stop.
You can stop harming yourself, sometimes you just need a little help.
Every single journey is different, and I know it can be hard. I promise you that I understand. But you can break away from it. You can find new ways to cope. And when you're coping, you can start to heal. And when you heal, you can start to grow. And when you grow? Well... that's when life really begins for you 💖
If you're in this space now and would like support, please reach out and let's talk about working together on a 1:1 level.
With love & support,
Shorina | Mindful Soul Collective
Counsellor & Wellbeing Coach