My phone broke yesterday, but today, I'm grateful. You might be thinking I sound crazy, but if you keep reading, you'll understand.
Yesterday was a tough day. My water bottle leaked and split water all through my bag. My journal, my favourite book and most importantly my iPhone ruined AND I had 2 customers be unreasonably rude and horrible to me.
Somebody actually wished bad karma on me in an email.
Yesterday sucked. I cried. I yelled. I screamed. I cried more. It was horrible. I was out at the time when I got the two emails and my phone was drowned. I was actually getting a pedicure as a little treat to myself but then everything went down the drain.
I rushed home and got every single red light (good old manifesting). I plugged it in and it wouldn’t turn back on. I spent an hour on live support to Apple to be told it is probably fried but I could go in for their next available appointment to confirm, a week later. At this point, I remembered I was waiting on phone calls from THREE surgeons, we’ve been waiting for phone calls and appointments for weeks and I really couldn’t miss them, so that made me even more upset.
I found a spare phone we had and thought it could tie me over for the next week. I plug it in and guess what? It was also fried.
I went to bed cranky, upset, stressed and worried (phones are so damn expensive, especially iPhones!).
I woke up feeling a bit better this morning and then decided I needed to make a decision on what to do about the phone scenario. For context, I’ve been awake for 4 hours now and still haven’t decided what I’m doing.
Right now, I’m sitting at my dining room table, I look across the table and my son is playing peek-a-boo with me, ducking down behind our flowers and popping back up. I look outside and I can see a sky which is a beautiful blue with white fluffy clouds. I can see big, green trees blowing in the wind. I look to my kitchen and can see a big bowl of fresh fruit – bananas (my son’s favourite), oranges, apples and mandarins – and a big 2-door fridge which I know is filled with the essentials, but also the non-essentials like yoghurt, flavoured milk, Coke, Tim Tams. I look down and see my favourite jeans, my gorgeous engagement ring, a comfortable dining chair and also beautiful floorboards.
You’re probably wondering what this blog post is even about, I get it, it’s a bunch of useless information so far, but I’m getting there.
Yesterday was a really bad day. It was and I admit that. It’s okay to have bad days. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to yell and scream. It’s okay to cry some more. We’re only human so feeling those emotions in stressful situations is OKAY. I spent a few hours of my afternoon yesterday feeling horrible and I don’t regret it at all.
I let myself feel the emotions and now today, I’m feeling better. Nothing physical has changed for me, I am still missing a phone and possibly missing surgeon’s phone calls. But my mindset has changed.
Today, I am grateful.
I’m grateful to have the money to buy another phone within 24 hours if needed without causing financial strain and I’m grateful to have a car to be able to physically get to a shop. But I’m even more grateful to have a beautiful son playing hide-and-seek with me this morning after I was such a mess yesterday. I’m grateful to look outside and see such a beautiful day where the sun has risen and is shining into my beautiful home. I’m grateful to look into my kitchen and see so much fresh, delicious food that feeds my family. I’m grateful to look down and see warm clothing, comfortable furniture and the safe home that my family lives in (and my amazing fiance literally built).
Unfortunate experiences happen every single day and to be honest, we just can’t avoid them, that’s life. But, if we remember those good things, the bad things really aren’t so bad, are they?
Your emotions are valid and it’s okay to feel them when you need too, just remember those good things too.
Certified Counsellor & Mental Health Coach