I shut down when I was called successful this week.
Karl and I were talking, and he mentioned that I was successful and my reaction wasn’t what I thought it would be… instantly, my body closed off. It felt as though I had turned inward energetically, completed blocked off. My mind then checked in with the thought ‘I’m not successful’. Both of these things then led to noticing disappointment and shame. All of this happened within seconds internally.
Externally, I responded with ‘how am I successful?’. Karl then started listing off all the things I do and why I actually am successful. As he did that, I noticed my body opening up again, my mind calming and the disappointment and shame shifting, but only slightly.
Consciously, I thought I was successful. But subconsciously, I clearly disagreed and needing to seek external validation.
Our beliefs are sneaky. Our beliefs are hidden. And a lot of the time, our beliefs are limiting. They’re holding us back. They’re keeping us stuck. They’re damaging our relationship to ourselves.
My subconscious belief that I wasn’t successful reared it’s head clear as day in this conversation, and then I got to clear it.
When we’re in tune with ourselves, our bodies, our minds and our souls, we are aware. We recognise the blocks. We can witness them as they’re happening, and that’s what I want for all of us. Blocks and limiting beliefs are always going to pop up in our lives, but when we can be aware of them, we can clear them.
With love & support,
Shorina | Mindful Soul Collective
Holistic Counsellor, Wellbeing Coach & Business Mentor
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